So as I sit here in the ever expanding darkness that is my room I am left to wonder why I am up. There is no reason for me to be up...it's not like if i'm chatting it up with people sharing awesome stories or making plans....hell i'm not even playing videogames. My life is just a pitiful shell of what I used to be, and that is saying something because I used to be a debbie downer and now I'm not even good enough to be that. I just wish I could get into a car and just drive somewhere, anywhere. But I can't even do that, first the car is broken and secondly and most importantly I don't have my license and I'm pretty sure I need that soon...I don't know have a hunch I might need it.
I never thought I would say this but I really want for school to start...I want a new beginning. I want to start again, I have my whole life ahead of me and I feel like this is the end...no I don't mean death but just that I have lived already. Which is completely sad Since I've done nothing and I'm so young. I want to work, make money and go blow it by going out and enjoying life. I want to....I want to...I want to, that's all I ever say.
I think I have wayyyyy too much time on my hands I need to start doing something and put my brain to use. I've spent way too much time listening to sports.
Also efffff this weather!!!!!!!!
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