Cover your ears!

Fuck!!!!

Why is it that my plans never work out?

I just wanted to write a blog about what was on my mind and as soon as I get on the computer I lose all of my thoughts....Now I am sitting here in my cold room (huzzah for coldness anybody?) trying to remember what silly insignificant thought was on my mind....

Oh well might as well keep typing..

So I've been listening to podcasts and it got me to thinking that I really want to start one. Now what would it be about? Well while thinking about topics my mind went directly to the conversations that happened during my lunch in High School...Sure it may be crude but they were truly hilarious discussions about whatever the hell was brought up, and that is not to say that we never brought up some thought provoking subjects..but if i ever started a podcast that is the type of feel that I want to capture. It seems funny that basically what I am saying is that I want the podcast to be what everyone wants there podcast to be: a conversation between friends about a certain topic. I just feel that a group of friends plus me could lead to an awesome podcast.

Ahhh there is another thing I would like to do but probably will never get done.....but I am really committed to doing this with some people it just seems like a  truly wonderful idea...I don't want to be selfish and not share my craziness with the world!

I'm thinking a revolution is needed!

I have to stop acting smart...I am not smart...I never was, I never will be...I see the way that people can elegantly express their emotions or make witty remarks about the the hypocrisy of the world....How whatever they write is so finely put together that it makes even the smartest remark that I have ever spewed out accidentally seem like the excrements of a homeless person with a horrible case of the runs....How they can have an opinion on almost everything that actually makes rational sense....But I am not that...My deep level thinking usually revolves around the thoughts of why no one has been able to genetically engineer pokemon...It saddens me that I bring down the standards of most people...Though in a good way I am so clueless that it makes even the simplest of simpletons seem like a graduate of harvard, yale, or some other ivy league school. In fact I know that this whole post has made no sense at all...and if it has please seek medical attention quickly because you know that the incoherent babblings of an emotionally unstable individual should not be understood, but rather studied so that you can somehow find a cure for this nonsensical writing....

Oh woe is me! For I have been living a lie all my life..."yes you are smart" "you are going to achieve something"

poppycock i say! Oh how i wish upon a star that is meant for wishing that my wish that I wish does come true...one of these days I would like to feel like I am the "smart" person people claim I am...

As i sit here in the vast emptiness that is my walled of room 

I am left to imagine what it is like being smart...

does it hurt?..does it tingle?

On a completely unrelated note I am glad that in it's on weird way this has been very therapeutic for myself..I know that most of you will not read this..in fact i'd be shocked if someone did...but if by some very slim chance you decided to put yourself through the torture that are my thoughts I apologize greatly....

Imagine this as trippy movie that only gets weirder every time you see it  

Only time will tell if i change...but I do have a say

So as I sit here in the ever expanding darkness that is my room I am left to wonder why I am up. There is no reason for me to be up...it's not like if i'm chatting it up with people sharing awesome stories or making plans....hell i'm not even playing videogames. My life is just a pitiful shell of what I used to be, and that is saying something because I used to be a debbie downer and now I'm not even good enough to be that. I just wish I could get into a car and just drive somewhere, anywhere. But I can't even do that, first the car is broken and secondly and most importantly I don't have my license and I'm pretty sure I need that soon...I don't know have a hunch I might need it. 

I never thought I would say this but I really want for school to start...I want a new beginning. I want to start again, I have my whole life ahead of me and I feel like this is the end...no I don't mean death but just that I have lived already. Which is completely sad Since I've done nothing and I'm so young. I want to work, make money and go blow it by going out and enjoying life. I want to....I want to...I want to, that's all I ever say. 

I think I have wayyyyy too much time on my hands I need to start doing something and put my brain to use. I've spent way too much time listening to sports. 

Also efffff this weather!!!!!!!!

Ahhh the wonderful sound of silence...and talking

Hello nation of non readers, i'm sorry i haven't put out content for you not to read but you see i'm a really busy man...I mean i am just swamped with all of this nothing. I wonder if you guys know how hard it is to wake up in the morning with nothing to do, nothing to look forward to, and nowhere to be...It really is tiring. Some days I just get wishing I had to do something but then i remember that someone has to do nothing...and i consider it my civic duty to do nothing so each and every one of you not reading this can go out in the world and do something.
 It seems like i'm sort of super hero.

But because of all this doing nothing business I have really started to listen to podcasts. My itunes is overflowing with em...i think I am subscribed to 17....but before I hear that is too much i only listen to a couple of them...it's on rotation and some are really short...But I have no idea why i am defending how I spend my time...I really must be bored to be blogging about listening to podcasts.....

I miss my PS3!!!! Oh and The Scott Pilgrim vs the world videogame is freaking epic!!! Nothing like an 8 bit beat em up! Go buy it on the psn or on xbla!